No one likes the ‘C’ word. It often brings a depressive & oppressive overture along to whomever and wherever it lands. What is this ‘C’ word that cause lives to be forever changed? Cancer…it may alter you but it does not have to define you. Let me be clear: Cancer Sucks – You Don’t!
I write this with the full recognition that I have never had cancer. I am thankful for that.
I write this knowing what it feels like to have a brother-in-law (Timmy) diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. Family was forever changed.
I write this knowing how it feels to pray as hard as I have ever prayed for Timmy to be healed. He wasn’t.
I write this knowing how it feels to be pissed at God for not doing anything. That could not be farther from the truth; He was very active.
I write this knowing how it feels to wonder if I could pray from someone else’s healing again. I have learned I can.
I write this knowing how it feels to watch Misty’s (my sister) life take a downward spiral because of Timmy’s death. It has been 6 long years.
I write this knowing how it feels to watch my nephew and niece miss their father and question God’s goodness. I had no answers that could soothe the pain.
I write this knowing how it feels to hear the ‘C’ word again; this time Misty. It alters our family even more.
I write this knowing how it feels to pray for Misty as she prepares for a double mastectomy. What ya up to God?
I write this knowing how it feels to rearrange my schedule so I can be there with her. Time spent with family is never wasted.
I write this knowing how it feels to watch my dad and mom struggle with their own emotions. My heart aches for them.
I write this knowing how it feels to have friends pray with and for me. Important point – we are not alone.
I write this knowing how it feels to be unsure and hopeful at the same time. Funny thing; human emotions and truth of God coexisting.
This past weekend a question ‘randomly’ pops into my mind: What am I most fearful of? I had many answers come to my mind but after contemplating, I landed on this statement: I am most fearful of not living. This statement is not about death or dying rather it is just the opposite. It is about living in the moments we have each day presented to us. For me it is being intentional and consistent with my health, family and friends. As I said before I do not do it perfectly but that is never the point. The point is to live as healthy as I can in my mind, body and spirit. It is about the daily choices I make that affect myself and those around me. Will I avoid the ‘C’ word because of a ‘healthier’ lifestyle – maybe but maybe not? Do daily healthy choices help either way – yep! What I do know is this: if I live in fear of the ‘C’ word – cancer not only sucks but I begin sucking as well. And I do not want to suck at life. I want to move and laugh and play and cry and sing and gaze and love and think as much as I can as long as I can. I do not want to waste my life! Each of us have a story. Each of us has a journey. Let us not waste what lies before us and in the midst of it – ‘C’ word and all – let’s give it all we got. Stay the course. Show up. Be present. Live full with eyes and arms and heart wide open. And most of all, remember: Cancer Sucks – You Don’t!
Below are a few links to help.
1. Whose Shoulder ya leaning on? – click here
2. We all could use a breakthrough from time to time. - click here
3. Faithful in it all. – click here
4. Don’t waste your cancer (or life). – click here